LADIES. I need to say some words about the state of my menstrual cycle lately:
I track my period and symptoms for no reason other than that I am weird like that, and for four years it has been the exact same thing: light cramping for two to three days before my period starts, one day of heavy flow, one day of lighter flow, CRAMPS OF DOOM and heavy flow again for a day, and then it tapers off and is done by the fifth day. Like, I could set my watch by this shit.
Except now it’s all weird for no discernable reason. In July, I got my period while driving halfway across the country, and I was hit with cramps so bad on the first day that I could barely speak. I had to stop to buy OTC painkillers in Alabama and I was shaking so bad when I handed the cashier my credit card that she said, “Honey, if you’re hurtin’ that bad, you gonna need something stronger than this.” and I was like YOU’RE RIGHT DO YOU SELL VICODIN. And she didn’t, so instead I curled up into a ball in my car and cried and puked. And that period lasted for like a week. I thought it was a one-time thing, but do you know what? Every month, people. It’s happened every month since then. My period started on Sunday and I did not leave my bed until 3 PM because of my motherfucker of a uterus, and that bitch is still going strong today.
What. The fuck. I’m twenty and I Became A Woman when I was like ten, and this sudden change is bothersome (read: enraging) to me. Is it even normal? I feel like it is not normal. Is there a disease where your period suddenly makes you weep (because it hurts and not just because you have a lot of ~feelings that week) and then YOU DIE? Because I have that, I think.